Hey girls,

I've been away for the last ages, trying to take my mind off TTC and concentrate on everything else we have going on (work, wedding, Mum's chemo) but I'd love if any of you could perhaps shed some light on this for me.
AF is normally like clockwork for me - 28 days and that's it. Once or twice I've gone to 30 days in my cycle and that's MEGA late - I'm more likely to go early (25,26 days) than late. I am now on CD34. Tested with an internet cheapie yesterday afternoon and BFN. This afternoon I went for a wee and when I wiped (apologies for the overshare) there was some pinky-brown CM on the tissue. That's all I have, no full bleeding or anything like that. I'm really confused. I've had AF-type cramps for about a week and a half now, sore boobs for the last few days and lots of creamy-yellow CM. That and my ability to find a dirty top from 2 rooms away on smell alone (no - seriously) had me thinking that by some minor miracle our turn had come and I was pregnant but the BFN and now this slightly bloody CM has assured me that I'm not. There's still a part of me that insists that it could be an implantation bleed that I'm experiencing but surely I'm too far along in my cycle for that? I normally ovulate around CD18. I'm losing it aren't I? It's okay, you can say so.

Hi Hippichic.

Hope you are doing ok, & that your mum is feeling ok?

Well just from my own experience....my little bit of implantation bleeding was on CD 37. I knew at that stage I was pregnant, because I did a FR. (I did a cheapie too which was BFN..hmm...cheap for a reason!) Anyway there was my positive test on FR & on day 37 I got the implantation bleed. It was light, on & off for a hour. But some people don't get any implantation bleed. Anyway my DS is now 1

Your best bet is FR or Clearblue. Good luck & it sounds like you may have something to share soon

Thanks for the reply Luka! I'm doing okay, been busy with my new job and love it. Mum's chemo has hit her hard for the first few days but she's doing better today. It's an aggressive cancer so they're treating it aggressively and sure all the bad side-effects from the chemo will be worth it if it helps her to beat this.
Just went on a quick knicker check again. Nothing when I wipe now and the pantyliner I threw on has only the smallest, slightest, light pink mark on it. Will get a CB digital or FR on Wed if there's still no sign of AF by then. I feel so silly getting my hopes up after more than 2 years of TTC without success but with all the cr@p we've been dealing with I can't help but feel like we're owed something good happening. Hopefully I'll be back in a few days gushing with good news!

Fingers crossed for you hippychic

Please God you'll be getting the good news I think you may be getting

Will say a prayer for your mum. xx

Hi hippychic,

I couldn't read and not reply. I read before about your mum (I'm a regular wollies gone anon for TTC), please God she will get well soon. xx

As for your query, I can't really advise as I'm new to the TTC world..... I Have everything crossed for you. I always believe that good things come to those who wait. Will say a prayer for you and your mum xxxx

Well girls AF arrived full force last night. After this long TTC I shouldn't have expected anything else really - fool that I am. Really annoyed with myself - I was just starting to come to terms with the idea that I might never experience pregancy, thinking about our other options, whether or not I could deal with the idea of adopting when this happened and now I feel like I'm right back to square one because I was so STUPID as to be hopeful.

So sorry hippy chick, this ttc is just cruel. Sure you were right not stupid to get your hopes up, you were late!

Ah Hippichic,

I'm so sorry.
Sometimes the TTC journey is hard in one way or another, look I was 36 having my DS after 2 miscarriages, so there's hope for everyone in the light of my trouble! MY friend was 3 years ttc & we used to be nearly crying to each other- she'd say to me " at least you can get pregnant" & I'd say to her "but you've more time than me", (as she's 4 years younger than me),this went on for years! & how did it end up? My DS & her DD are 3 months apart in age! The moral is, it WILL happen. As impossible as it may seem, it wil happen.

Aww so sorry to hear that Hippychic !!! Thats a pure bummer. What can you do, its a flippin rollercoaster. I was really hoping for your when I read your post. My AF is late this month too (CD52 today) - but it was mega late aswell last time (62 days), so I'm trying not to even think about it.
I don't feel any different anyway and I'm sure its on the way.

Chin up and try to relax and take it easy.... onwards and upwards to the next cycle