9th November 2009 13:14Hi girls I am PG with much wanted baby #2 and have a gorgeous DD who I adore. BUT I feel so crappy these days. Just really really low, depressed really. There is no logic to it we were trying for a baby and thrilled when it happened after 3 months (versus the year and treatment last time). It alls feels very surreal cos it happened quickly for us and nerve wrecking as I had an early MC first month after pill. We have both been really tentative about getting excited for fear of another MC and I therefore there has been very little excitement. Also I feel a bit overwhelmed and scared of managing two babies. Also, i really would love DD to have a sister as I have one and find myself obsessed over wanting a girl not a boy already! I am a SAHM and finding the days a bit long and lonely with nobody to talk to. We dont plan to tell family for a while so feel a bit isolated. I know I am being irrational and I know I should be happy and then I feel guilty that something will happen cos I am not being happy and positive. Guess I just wanted to say it all to someone and wondering if anyone feels or felt the same. DH is good but his job is very stressful and I am trying not to wreck his head too. I really really want to enjoy the amazing experience of being PG but as of right now I am not.