25th August 2008 12:36
I'm losing my reason here so just need a good hard slap in the face.
Basically my body has been pretty much prepped and ready for labour for weeks now, at my hospital appointment last week (when I had a sweep done, which did fck all) I was told that everything looked like I was ready to go.
Baby is well engaged and has been for about a month, neck of womb is very soft and ripe, been having very strong and painful false labour contractions every day for 4 weeks now (they come for a few hours then disappear

), I have pretty much every single text book sign and symptom of impending labour, except for a show or mucous plug.
So why is my body refusing to take the final step? I feel like i'm being slowly tortured to insanity, every single day since about 37 weeks it has felt very much like labour is starting but then it just stops again. So here I am, 9 days overdue and within an inch of being committed. Looks very likely that i'm going to have to wait the two weeks to be induced, will find out on Wednesday at post-date appointment.
I don't think I'd mind being over and having to be induced so much, if it wasn't for the fact that i've been teased and fooled into thinking labour is starting for so long now, that's what's driving me insane.
Have done every single thing possible to help it along too.
Just feeling like such a failure, which I know is ridiculous, but it's so hard to think rationally at this stage.
And I'm quite afraid of being induced, so so so badly wanted to go myself

Right, rant over, I need to go smash something.